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[Jun. 2nd, 2005|08:50 am] |
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| |  thoughtful | ] |
me and pat are over. for good this time. even though it hurts, very intensely at some moments, i know its for the best. who knows if we'll even be friends after. its time to move on.
i have to look for a job today. i haven't heard back from a temp agency yet so im gonna have to go out and apply the old fashioned way.
i've been talking to some people i haven't talked to in awhile and i like it. so keep it going. i hope this summer is a good one. |
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[Apr. 5th, 2005|07:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  good | ] |
| [ | music |
| | bush- letting the cables sleep | ] |
its been a very long time since i've posted. im not sure how to sum up the last few months so i'll just start fresh. it is beautiful out today and it reminds me of summer. i cant wait until summer is here. apparently i'm involved in a tentative road trip to vegas. we'll see how that goes... whenever i am nostalgic for summer, a lot of my memories come from the one after sophomore year. that was one of the best times ever.
there has been some drama but i think most of it is solved. that was one reason why i went home this past weekend. it was a great weekend and much needed. i got my lil sis drunk for the first time and i think she's gonna become an alchy. all the power to her.
ps- GO SEE SIN CITY. |
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[Jan. 21st, 2005|06:57 am] |
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| |  infuriated | ] |
so this is about the third night in a row that i've had about 2 or 3 hours of sleep. my lovely father has a serious snoring problem. i think it's beyond snoring, it sounds like he's choking. its horrible. i even bought him those nose strips but they dont work, so i have a feeling the throat spray stuff wont work either. i cannot wait to go back to school, even though its noisy as hell there too, but i'd rather hear someone bouncing a ball on the floor above me than this irriating, disgusting sound. |
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[Jan. 12th, 2005|11:54 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | chipper | ] |
| [ | music |
| | sweet avenue- jets to brazil | ] |
i just watched clear and present danger. i wanna put harrison ford and his cute little smirk in my pocket. i have never seen the whole indiana jones but im sure my appreciation for him will sky rocket after that.
today was the last day of class. thank the fucking lord. 3 hours everyday in a classroom is not how i would have liked to spend the last few weeks, but whats done is done and now i can transfer the credits.
seeing everyone is nice. i have to get around to calling more people though. i should get on that since everyone's going back soon. im home til the 30th cause ramapo is awesome. |
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[Dec. 10th, 2004|10:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  hungry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | dizzy up the girl | ] |
lately i've just been reading journals and not updating my own, which sounds kinda creepy, so hear goes.
i just got back from babysitting the kids that im gonna sit next semester. they are the most energetic kids i've met but they're so adorable. so things look like they'll be good. i cant believe the semester is almost over. finals are gonna blow, but im kinda excited to go home. ill get to see people and get privacy. im taking a winter class at middlesex so thats gonna suck.
daddy-o is coming up tomorrow cause my car died. i dont know what hes gonna do to fix it but anything is worth a shot at this point. plus, i dont mine seeing him. we've been getting along.
it doesnt feel like the holidays are coming yet. even though the stores have been reminding us of this since october. i bought all necessary gifts. woop.
bah, i cant see thursday on the 27th. someone's gonna pay. |
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[Oct. 22nd, 2004|02:41 am] |
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i am fucking gone i love ariel burgess. she is my godsend. if i didnt have her as a roomate, i would die...or commute. one or the other. we have fun. good night. |
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[Oct. 19th, 2004|08:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | hungry | ] |
| [ | music |
| | your new aesthetic- jew | ] |
the last few days have been awesome. 2 surprise parties = insane and hectic. but they both were successful. mama and michelle were both super shocked. i really only saw my family when i was home but i still had a great time. i didn't wanna leave, but now im back here and its great. i got to see michael. he's has become crazzzy. god help him when he turns 21. and i got more stuff that i needed up here. michelle's party was fun. things weren't as tense as i thought they were gonna be so i think everything will be back to normal now. whew.
i gotta get my pics developed. im excited. so my midterms are over. i had 2 today and my brain is fried. hopefully i did alright.
i cant wait til thanksgiving when i go home and see everyone. i miss certain people. |
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[Sep. 28th, 2004|05:08 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  blah | ] |
| [ | music |
| | alcoholic party | ] |
its pouring outside. thankfully i found my umbrella because i didnt have it before and that blew. a lot of shit has happened in the last couple of days. me and pat are over. it was my doing but it still hurts. and it was not a clean break up at all. i dont really feel like getting into that here.
i guess this calls for an update:
-im single and im not sure how to feel about that
-my throat is getting better
-i love my roomate ariel to death
-momma smith's surprise party is approaching so i gotta get shit together for that
-i finally got a shoe rack for my tiny ass closet
-i woke up with a massive hangover from last night
-sleep sounds good |
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[Sep. 7th, 2004|02:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | billy joel- only the good die young | ] |
so im here at ramapo. i just had my first class and its boring as hell. math with some guy who whispers so i cant even hear him. last night was fun because michelle moved in so things felt a little more normal. i lovvve my roomate so thats a plus. i really miss pat but hopefully i'll get to see him sometime in october. i think im gonna like it here. now its off to english. i hope everyone else is having fun wherever they are. |
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[Aug. 26th, 2004|08:50 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  uncomfortable | ] |
| [ | music |
| | silent hill 3 soundtrack | ] |
wow its been a long time since ive been on here. i got my wisdom teeth pulled 2 days ago, so i am now typing with one hand as the other holds an ice pack to my chipmunk looking face. everyone that says it doesnt hurt so bad is lying. the doc gave me tylenol with codeine and that doesnt really help. hopefully tomorrow this swelling will go down.
a week from saturday i leave for school. hot damn this summer went by fast. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2004|11:54 pm] |
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| | cranky | ] |
one of three things is happening:
a) im changing and the people around me are staying the same.
b) im staying the same and the people around me are changing.
c) the people around me and myself are changing in different ways.
initially i'd say it was 'c' hands down but now i honestly dont know. |
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[Jul. 1st, 2004|09:59 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | sad | ] |
| [ | music |
| | lifehouse | ] |
yea so its been awhile. i got back from florida on monday. i was there for about 6 days and stayed at pat's house. key west is gorrrgeous. sigh, i wish i was still there.. for a couple of reasons: a) its away from here. b) everything is pretty there. c) (and most importantly) pat is there. man, this being separated shit is not fun. i think i under-estimated how much it was gonna hurt because i have been so emotional since i got back. i freaking passed by funcoland and was about to cry. hopefully it will get easier. aside from that stuff, i also got sea sick for the first time when we went snorkling. to anyone who has ever experienced sea sickness, you can sympathize with that "i drank too much, the room is spinning, i have to puke" feeling. but the little fishies appreciated my puke overboard. it was so nasty.
i made a new sn: jenalodeon. so either add that or post your sn because i lost them all.
i need to find something to do for the 4th of july. |
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[Jun. 8th, 2004|03:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  accomplished | ] |
| [ | music |
| | bush | ] |
prom and the poconos happened this weekend. overall i had a good time. it was overrated in my opinion but it was still fun. thankfully we did not go to seaside and have our house get raided--my sincere apologies to everyone who that applies to.
getting dressed up and the hair done was fun. then i went to 3 different places to take pictures. so once we finally got in the limo i felt like changing and heading up to the poconos. we wound up leaving prom early, and i just realized that we didn't get our party favor, whatever it was. the weather all weekend sucked so the poconos consisted of eating, drinking, sleeping, and sexual conduct. i must have cooked more steak and eggs this weekend than i ever have before. i didn't drink either, aside from a beer or two. i have come to realize that a) i dont like the feeling of it and b)my body can't handle it. maybe i'm allergic or some shit.
one of the highlights was sleeping next to my baby all weekend. im gonna miss that.
good times were had but im glad to be home. |
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[May. 26th, 2004|08:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | lenny kravitz- dig in | ] |
-school is almost over, but not soon enough
-prom is almost here, dont get me started on that. but its somewhat comforting that everyone else is having problems with that too
-michelle came home today. i missed her so thats cool
-i am eating lucky charms and enjoying every bite
-i have to talk to pat so he better call soon
-i no longer have to pretend that i like somebody because its out in the open that we both are not fond of eachother
-i have 3 projects that i need to complete
-i miss bunches of people
-im spending way too much money lately
-i cant wait to see the end of the godfather |
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[May. 13th, 2004|10:13 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | mellow | ] |
| [ | music |
| | elton john- rocket man | ] |
wow, this fucking blows. i go to sign on aim but it says my screen name is blocked. its because the name expired on aol after we cancelled it. so now i have no way to access my buddy list. i also have a terrible memory when it comes to screen names so if you wanna post yours that would be nice. my new sn will probably be jenitals12.
tomorrow is finally friday. its been a long ass week. on tuesday i went to sandy hook with marine bio. got a hell of a burn. i also started going tanning, even though i was so strongly opposed to it before. oh well, shit happens. i have yet to try the bed. stand ups seem less scary to me. we got prom bids today and even though there are some complicatoins with after prom stuff, everything seems like it will work out for the best. whew. by the way, i love rebecca nison.
i had a pretty good talk with pat's mom. im starting to cope with the fact that he'll be in florida from after graduation til ever. hopefully i wont have another breakdown like i did the other night. i dont think i will anytime soon. |
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[May. 8th, 2004|08:37 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | groggy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | just watch the fireworks- jimmy eat world | ] |
im about to go out to breakfast with pat and his mom. IHOP. thats all i have to say.
so mother's day is tomorrow. still gotta get the present so me and lauren are going to the mall today. i feel like we always get her the same stuff so maybe we'll be adventurous this year and get a pony or something. how would you go about wrapping a pony?
last night was very uneventful. it resulted in aimless driving, making omlets, and getting in an argument.
i wanna go to the shore one of these nights. i think its gonna be cooler out today though. i love the ocean in general but i think its so much prettier at night than during the daytime.
hm, what else? i went to the variety show the other night. it was ok.
i've lost touch with some people and am finally talking to them again. actually hanging out is gonna be another story. different schedules and crap suck.
that is all. |
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[May. 2nd, 2004|09:51 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | melancholy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | brilliant dance- dashboard | ] |
i am having madd mood swings. and i've been saying the word "madd" lately uncontrollably and i dont like it.
i am satisified in some areas...pat, friends, etc...but completely stressed and down in others...self-doubt, work, pat going to florida next year, people concerned with my weight..
well pat came home today so that made me happy. later on we wound up at warnsdorfer playground with becki, alex, and craig. i felt like a kid. summer should definitely be here. it sucks hairy balls that school is still on for tomorrow, and the next 35 or something days.
so far im leaning towards majoring in sociology. dont know the minor or what i'll do with it though. just a thought.
i feel like sleeping. and crying. yes, crying would be nice. |
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[Apr. 29th, 2004|07:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | music |
| | feeder- high | ] |
today i was semi-bitchy, just becasue i feel like im getting taken advantage of by some people. and i let them know that today, probably not outwardly enough, but i think they got the hint.
pat left for florida today. this means that im not gonna be able to see him til tuesday. i miss him so much already. i guess a little while apart couldn't hurt. i would be jealous that he gets nice weather but lately the weather here has been gorgeous so i have no complaints.
im might check out some tanning places this weekend. this way i have about a month to lay in a cancerous bed before prom is here. whats the big idea with tanning and prom anyway? people look better tan i presume.
i got jeans today. they will probably not fit right in a week because thats what always happens with my jeans.
im gonna go hang up the laundry. fun times. |
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[Apr. 26th, 2004|09:42 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | thoughtful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | take it easy- the eagles | ] |
i had the same dream 2 nights in a row.
i was outside infront of a track that was half track material and half pavement. i wanted to run. so i start running but have no shoes on. oh shit, i think, but for some reason i dont go back and get shoes. so my feet get all cut up but i can't feel anything.
the second night i dreamt that i knew that i dreamt it before too. anyone who is good at intepreting dreams please be my guest.
i got out of work 15 mins early tonight and it made me incredibly happy. but being with my manager for 6 hours neutralized the feeling.
i watched 12 monkeys yesterday. weird, confusing, good, contains bruce willis and brad pitt. im told that i have to watch it a couple more times to fully understand it.
are there any movies coming out this weekend that i can take 2 little boys to? |
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[Apr. 21st, 2004|09:54 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | busy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | lenny kravitz | ] |
ah, home from a nice long day at work. i feel like im in my mid-life already with this schedule i have.
anyway, chapelle's show is on soon. i was not a fan for awhile but ever since that wayne brady episode i've had a change of heart. does anyone remember that show?
as of late i've had a love for oranges. and an immense hatred towards school. i think its something like 8 weeks left. too long.
reunion on friday! i can't wait.
wow, i never go online anymore. no time and no desire to i guess.
im freaking out. |
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